I thought about something my wife kept telling me. I thought about how she kept saying that there was work out there that I might even like, that even though I was pursuing a career as a writer, that didn’t mean that every other job on the planet was bound to be not fulfilling. Besides my work at a kids camp, which was wonderful but seasonal, that was exactly what I thought. All of my experience told me that work, besides writing stories and music, was deeply un-fulfilling. To put it frankly: What was I supposed to do but find a shitty job I didn’t like and work it until my writing career took off (if it ever took off)?
I decided I would try to take my wife’s advice. To act as if she was right and then I my mind would follow suit.
I called an old friend.
The friend worked at a bookstore and I thought that maybe, just maybe, I would enjoy selling books to people and talking about them. After all, I reasoned, I love books. I want to write books. Books are sort of my thing. I hoped that it would pay enough and that I would be considered.
What happened was nothing short of a miracle, and it happened in a whirlwind analogous to the time I almost died. Everything happened so fast it was almost like I was spinning. I prayed like I never prayed before during this time, but that was really all I could do besides wait and hope. Here’s what happened:
My friend spoke to her Manager and I sent in my online application, the Manager read it and granted me an interview, which was awesome but I wasn’t sure what I was being interviewed for. I hoped to wrangle myself toward an Assistant Manager position which I knew they were hiring for, but at another location, and I mentioned this in the interview, so the Manager left mid-interview and grabbed her General Manager, who was lovely. The General Manager recommended me for another interview at a different location, a location in need of a Manager—not an Assistant Manager, but Manager. I met for the second interview with a different GM and even the Regional Manager, which may have been standard operating procedure but the hell if it didn’t take me by surprise. I talked about my camp experience, my time supervising a movie theatre, my internship at a newspaper, and countless other things. I said all this in a half-daze, nervous and hoping desperately that I would get the position… A position that I actually wanted. Was I dreaming?
The man who is writing this is not the man who sat on the foot of that bed, hollow and waiting for a mixed future of discontent. The man writing this is a Manager at a major bookstore who works with people and products that inspire him, who has purpose in his career and therefore more value in his life, who knows what he does is important, who is surrounded by an environment that encourages writing, who is, and I can’t believe I’m going to write this…
So now I sit here at my computer. I have been working this job for nearly a month and though it has it’s challenges, I keep being glad that I have it. I am thankful that I have it as I am thankful for my wife, my unborn daughter, my family, and friends. I am thankful for the opportunity to spend six hours in a row updating a website that is full of words I’ve written, to feel a sense of unity and joy in my life, to finally feel like I’ve embarked on my mission to Manhood.
So here’s to the future, my friends. Here’s to the future.
So what does this all mean for the website? Besides keeping things a little more regular over here, you may notice the NEWSLETTER is more prominent on the sidebar (for those of you on a computer and not a phone), as well the sidebar features an area where I can update word-counts for my current large projects. Right now I have my Untitled Mystery and my Untitled Sci-fi listed there, both of which are novels. The Sci-fi is intended to be the first of a trilogy, and the Mystery is, well… It’s a mystery at this point.
If you haven’t subscribed to the website yet, and you have any interest in my work, then you should do so. The maximum you would ever get is one email a week, but probably it will be less than that. Subscribing is a great way to not only stay informed to what’s new here, but actively support my work. My readership has slowly grown over the last year despite the website itself going through growing pains, and now I want to say thank you to those early subscribers of mine. Thank you to those who suffered through different stylistic changes and even a URL change! Your continued readership encourages me to pursue my dreams with all that I’ve got to pursue them.
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